When you spend so much time with someone they start to consume you, before you know it the whole of you has changed to what you have become as you have become reliant on this one human. You don’t realise until they leave your presence… and then you have nothing left of yourself.
At this point you are left to decide to be empty or to rebuild yourself into who you now want to be. Will you be someone completely new or will you be who you were previously?
when it comes up and you dont want to make someone feel bad but they need to know why you are how you are.
they feel bad because of how they made you feel for four whole years.
i feel vulnerable and weak and shit
plain old shit.